Saturday, January 31, 2009

bf or bestfriend? part II

continue fr bf or bestfriend?

...I stared at Lisa for a moment."Dont said it again. I cant survive without you beside me. u are the only my bestfriend"

We grew up together. I still remember when first time i saw Lisa in Kindergarten when we were 5 years old. I laughed alone. Now, Lisa was no more a messy girl. She was a beautiful girl with a pair of hazel eyes and long blonde hair.

Finally, we managed to finish our high school with flying colors. Both of us get offered to further our studies in same University but in different courses. Life in campus wasn't the same in high school. Lisa was busy with her project while me was busy with my tutorial. We seldom spent time together even on weekends. "Fleur, do u know Andrian? i think i'm in crush with him" Lisa messaged me. 5 months later, i get news from my roommate that Andrian coupled with Lisa.

No more news from Lisa since she coupled with Andrian. Sometimes, i text her but frustrated. no reply. I miss Lisa and our childhood memories. wished that we could turn back our memory. One day,i saw Lisa and Andrian in shopping mall. I walked close to them and hugged Lisa from behind. She was shocked and we had a chat for a while. In deep of my heart, i wished that they would offer me to join them together. But, Lisa didnt said anything. She explained to me that she didn't replied my msg because she was lack of credit.

For me, Lisa was totally different. She was no more my Lisa in my childhood. Maybe, Andrian was more important then me. i cried alone in my room. i cant believe that Lisa can forget her bestfriend since she had a bf. People can easily erase the memory. Life was not fair..

bf or bestfriend?

17 years ago..

"wake up my dear little princess.. its time for u to go to school, honey" mom said. i still closed my eyes and freezing in the panda bear blanket."but mom, i hate school.."i said."you will get lots of friends will learn ABC and become a smart princess in future,dear" mom whispered.

Krinngg..the bell was ringing.i hugged my mom and ran to the class.i was confused when i saw lots of children at my age staring at me like i'm a little ugly ducking in a lion's cage.finally, i just sat at the corner. the empty seat. i looked at a petite girl who was sitting beside me. She looked messy with her hair. i saw her nametag, Lisa Montego.

That was the starting when i knew my bestfriend, Lisa. She was one of the top student if our school. She helped me lots since she always scored in her papers with flying colors. Finally we went in the same high school. She's everything for me. We shared our secret together, cried together and laughed together. Teachers and classmates thought that we were twins because we went anywhere and everywhere together holding hands. we cant be separated anymore."Fleur, what if i die one day? what u gonna do if i cant hold your hands anymore?" Lisa asked me. i was shocked. i can felt warm tears on my pinky cheek.

>>>to be continue<<<

Friday, January 30, 2009


You're a true friend,
that I want you to know,
Our love for each other
has helped us to grow.
We've been through some tough times,
but we've made it through,
The only one I ever trusted was you.
You helped me through anger,
you've chased away fears.
You held me through sadness,
and kissed away tears.
You stayed by my side
when the world turned away.
You helped me see joy
when the skies were all gray.
You were the rainbow
at the end of the storm.
You help me be different
when I shouldn't conform.

You held my hand
when you knew we would fall.
Every heartache,
you saw me through it all.
I'm not sure
I'm always the best friend to you,
I know I'm not perfect,
but this much is true.
When life gets you down,
And there's nowhere to turn,
I'll help you through and
I'll share your concern.
I'll try my best to return every favor,
When you're sure that you'll drown,
then I'll be your lifesaver;
Even if we both go down.
Whether we sink or swim
doesn't matter at all,
Just know that I'll be there
whenever you call.
I'll pull you out
when life pulls you under.

I'll be the sun
when there's lightning and thunder.
And when it's all over,
And we've fought every war,
There's one thing I promise,
Of this I am sure,
When the time comes
that we're put to our rest.
Be sure that you know that,
My friend, you're the best.
And if there is Heaven,
then I know you'll be there,
That if you die first
then you'll hear every prayer.
And soon I'll join you,
but just know until then.
That I'll miss you each day
'til I see you again.
At the end of the tunnel,
you'll be my guiding light,
You'll lead me to heaven,
away from the night.

We'll be there together,
and we'll never grow old.
And we'll walk hand in hand
On the streets paved of gold.

my sweetheart syasyi gave me this..she's my bestfren for whole life.. we r closed since tkc..we studied together every evening n nite.she encouraged me to stand on my own feet.she likes to call me FREN BEAR. i love her body n soul.last time met her in tkc 2003,,nk ambek results spm.dl kt tkc, dier sgt2 happy go lucky n can mixed wif anyone..sgt klakar n giler2 otak..agak gangster.state hockey player!both of us r co-op helper yg berjaya!nw she's in final year engineering at UTM.

hug n kisses~ love u till i kill u on my own hands :) muaxxxx !!

Wednesday, January 28, 2009


today, just finished my patho anat paper..alhamdulilah.. supposely nk g hsptl siloam ngn aimi..nk visit zu.. but ader review g laa kjap ngn aiman.. odw nk blk..aimi text me yg dier xdpt nk g hsptl wif grk wif aiman..

me:aiman!! kejap..nk g hsptl ngn hang..
aiman: fren ..hang nk g ngn aku? helmet mana?
me : alaa aiman.. ambekla kejap helmet ..hehehe (senyum kerang busuk)
aiman: ok ..nnt kita singgah delta kejap na..nak beli mcD ka..kfc ka..
me: hang nak beli peluru tuk israel tembak anak2 palestine kaa??
aiman senyappp... so nak beli aper? he asked me...
me: belilaa hoka2 bento..sokong japan!!

but lastly..smpai delta trus masuk mcD..set yg 2ketul ayam aiman beli.. i jst bought sundae... hmpp.. wondering??

Thursday, January 22, 2009

1st impression~

y do people jugde the other people wif 1st impression without they knowing exactly who is that person in reality..


MisZGueSS: ieeuww.. dier buruk hell.. he's not my taste.. mati la i if i kuar dating ngn dier... abes jatuh saham i.. (dgn gaya gedix2 paRis HiLtON)

~ dorghh.. tau tgk muke ensem mcm Edward Cullen je baru leh jd partner la? if buruk muke pecah tembok?campak longkang?

MRBuSHy: pehwiiitt..awek tu cun mini skirt..jln catwalk!

~ oo..if org yg pkai tudung labuh how? xcun ke?solehah lgk tu leh jd good wife

MisZLoLLyPoP: shit..gemok gell mamat tu.. mmg reject !pandang sebelah mata pun xlarat

~ u jst knw about his fatty,lipid n TG (triglycerol).. but what about his hepar(heart)?

CeKgUKeaManAn: alaaa..bdk tu..dier mmg bodoh pun since darjah 1 xreti baca ABC

~ mmg la aja la dier..skrng stupid..jgn terkejut 1day dier leh jd angkasawan pegi Planet Pluto 2020 nk bersujud mengaku anak murid?

MiZzGuCCi: eh, cik EsPrit tu mmg xder fashion sense la.. cube tgk style dressup dier ngn combination colors dier.. pening gell ..mcm tongkang pecah

~ dier nk pkai aper2 pun suke hati dier la..if kaya sgt..blanje la dier 1dress..ala asal cik esprit ttp aurat sudah

GoSSipBoyZ: ala...aku tengok BunGe TaIK Ayam tu dh xvirgin la..aku tau..

~ chewah,, telephaty power nih..biarla dier ngn urusan Allah akhirat nnt..kiter nih jage jela diri baek2..

JiRaNkEcOH: anak sebelah tu liar btol.naik moto ngn mamat rempit ..bohsia btol..

~ jagala anak sendiri dl sblm nk judge anak org lain..ntah2 anak snd xtercontrol

TuaNinTervIeW: sye tgk muke awk pun, sye loya..awk nih dhla xberbakat..xder style..ckp pun terbelit2..

~hrmpp.. interviewla btol2 nyerk..bkn academic 4flat je priority..others attitude n bakat too..

SiKaYaRAYa: si MisKin tu dhla dasar miskin..ader hati lagek tu nk bershopping kt Tunjungan Plaza..mne layak mane agak2 dier dpt duet tu? suap ekor ke

~masyaAllah..jgn tuduh menuduh..dier dpt bonus kot..biarla if duet haram..tanggung snd..if duet halal..alhamdulilah

AnAkBerJaYa: btol ke wei Anak Xberjaya tu dpt 4flat? dier bodek lecturer leh la kot

~ala..blaja jela..jgn kesah dier dpt bpe flat pun..dh dier pandai.beat la

so y do ppl suke memandang kejayaan some1 if -ve sides...jelous? xpuas hati? sakit hati? if org sekeliling rsa xpuas hati..if kiter lain gelak..
tu la sebenarnyeh human.. sng dihasut we just be ourself.. jaga la mulut n akhlak..b nice person n dont judge others without we exactly knw who d hell he/she is.. b cool..b nice to all :)

Friday, January 16, 2009

we will not go down (song for Gaza)


A blinding flash of white light
Lit up the sky over Gaza tonight
People running for cover
Not knowing whether they’re dead or alive

They came with their tanks and their planes
With ravaging fiery flames
And nothing remains
Just a voice rising up in the smoky haze

We will not go down
In the night, without a fight
You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools
But our spirit will never die
We will not go down
In Gaza tonight

Women and children alike
Murdered and massacred night after night
While the so-called leaders of countries afar
Debated on who’s wrong or right

But their powerless words were in vain
And the bombs fell down like acid rain
But through the tears and the blood and the pain
You can still hear that voice through the smoky haze

We will not go down
In the night, without a fight
You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools
But our spirit will never die
We will not go down
In Gaza tonight

Micheal Heart .. i'm crying over Gaza :(


akhirnya!!! finish n dh submit my research since sem 5 bwt penelitian!proposal sem 4.. arkkk..horror gell nightmare hell nk odw siapkan tu! anyway big hugs to dr.tulus panuwun sp pathology n dr.iwan kristian,surgeon.. d best dr. pebimbing yg sempoi coz dr tulus agreed anything i've done !! (mirul n apan ckp sye corrup dr ngn brownies..n flirt ngn dr..hahaha) -me about breast cancer according to ages-

but i still remember time zmn2 sem4 ulang alik g hsptl mcm @#$% nk patah kaki..time tu temankan aimi n mirul searched data..since aimi bwt psl andrology n mirul psl TB in children..

me: permisi bu, poli andrology di mana ya?
ibu1: ooo.. mbak mau periksa kandungan ya? lurus aja ke poli kandungan ..

us??? huh?? what d hack..

me again: permisi bu, poli andrology di mana ya?
ibu2:lurus aja ntar kelihatan kok..

so we walked ngn muke2 confused..sbb tules poli kandungan!! huh?? damn it.. they tout fren n aimi nk bwt abortion ke? n mirul as si bapak? hahaha

so msk poli woman infertile.. ibu tu tengok2 kami mcm kami nih nk bwt checkup plak!! mcm mirul si bapak wif 2 isteri cantik2 which were aimi n me laa..haha..

den last2 jmpe laa poli andrology ! mirul refused nk masuk coz nnt org chop or tout dier infertile n nk bwt checkup ! ahahaha.. (tapi kami pakse gak)

1 question dr tulus asked me "if menarche at early age which is below 12..high risk kne breast cancer.. so what if a woman menarche at age 19 or 20?"

p/s: pray for my finals n yudisium..amin =) hectic*brains gonna explode*

Sunday, January 11, 2009

medical degree~

last wed, 7th jan 09

dekan FK pgl sume anak2 malaysia.. they wanna f2f wif us..

quality of medical degree in Indonesia University was basically the topic

issue psl ~

1. holiday xtetap.. mmg issue lame n sgt2 menyusahkan us nk book ticket back to msia
2. kitas, ERP those visa things ..expensive if gune org tgh under uni..patut if gune under uni,,considerla kami students yg sll pokai.
3. quality of students fr a-levels,matric, or stpm who actually did not qualified to seat the entrance exam pun.. they didnt past 3pointer yet can be a medical student.bengang dl time premed study mcm nk rak nk lepas FK.. skalik ader je my frenz below 2.5 (hello tu rendah gell ok) lepas je FK..i dont know if they suap-menyuap..results spm ader je D pn leh come? y x ambek course suri rumah tangge je?
4. langguage...bhse indonesia.. hmpp..we should learn more the english medical term.easy for us to enter the world of housemanship in our country.but i think thatz not a big deal.
5. 2years of DM (dokter muda) is not enoff? so learn more, be aggresive, be productive and be independent. dont too depends on dosen (lecturers)..
6. basic of theory must be concrete and strong enoff. ala senang je.. time theory years jgnla learn n do ur exam papers by urself.nnt DM sng. (petua mas bambang)
7. agents makan duet. issue yg lame dh bising. tlgla ketatkan agents n ambek tindakan undang2 to any agents yg sedap2 je nk anta mane2 students yg xlayak pn ambek medic n corruption nih.
8. tuition fees too expensive? like mine per year USD 5k.. juniors 08 USD 8k ! aarrkkkk... tlg la blaja rajen2..if x dh lame dh bley gune duet tu bwt europe tour..hhheheheh
9. yudisium tarikh xtentu. yeah2.. tlgla fix kan date..
10. aper lagek nyerk?

overall, our university mmg xde problem.. about issue! mmg seriously xder. alhamdulilah. mostly sume students kt unair yg btol2 quality (chewah puji diri snd).. theory n practicle both bagus. since 2nd sem we r expose to hospital life..(pre-clinical)..sbb mmg ader uni lain ader yg xpnh langsung g hsptl (theory semate2..n DM mmg dipuji bagus practicle.. (clinical years)..

dean said "pulang ke malaysia, bawa nama baik universitas airlangga. tunjukkan contoh kalian dokter yg bagus praktek nya"

so students unair.. jom sambut sahutan our beloved dekan!! amin

Thursday, January 1, 2009

au revoir 2008~

champions ~ gurls futsal at malang, jogjakarta

tkcians nite out~ besties gurlfrenz + sys

22nd burfday party~ great time

3 cowboi.. yeehaaa...anggere..anggere

lovely family vacation at mount bromo

those r randoms pics of mine wif fmily n frenz around 2008 events.. au revoir 2008.. bonjour 2009 !! may prosperity, luxurious, and heaven are waiting for us in new journey of life.. may the past had taught us the experiences and we become more stronger~ i love myself