Friday, May 21, 2010

Urology Surgery

Sekarang dh 1week start stase Surgery..

Opthal dah habis dah..yeay !! *exams ngn dr.Prilia susah ok..detail gell soalan*

Surgery ~
Sekarang dh habis dh round for Urology..
PPDS best gell.. seniors baik.. sekretariat dier baik2 n frenly..
tapi penat skit la.. i started my day wake up at 430am.. gerak g hospital at 530am.. went back home around 5-7pm.. sampai housemate i, Nadhirah dah kangen2 dah ..sbb mcm xberjumpe je with me at home.. hahahaha...

today unlucky la,
xsempat naik tengok operation at GBPT. :( sayang kan...

anyway,
pagi2 kne ikut visit patients, morning report (and DM kne present sume case new patients)..
PPDS santaila..gelak ketawa kuat gell..n dieroang sporting.. xstress kerja..sukela tgk dieroang..

kerja kt Poli kne bwt SOAP penuh..
byk patients dtg ngn chief complaint with hematuria, urine retention, kolik pain, flank pain n lain2 laa
case mcm stone, BPH, cancer vesica urinaria, disfunction erectile..
so DM bwt anamnesa (history taking), check status generalis, check status urology including flank mass, pain knock CVA, external genitalia - circumcised, stenosis MAE, palpated testis simetris.. and the last is digital rectal examination ( indication for male aged above 40 yrs old) - to find out the spinghter anal reflex, mucous, consistency of prostate or nodule. (DRE is important to identify for BPH-Beningn Prostatic Hyperplasia or Carcinoma Prostate)

if kat ESWL (minor operation)
byk case kanak2 with hypospadia (meatus urethra at ventral of penis) coz congenital..
menjerit2 la sakit ... *sian jgk tgk..tapi nak bwt mcmne kan*
den dr.Anis baik gell suh saye pasangkan catheter at this guy (mule2 dier malu coz i'm a girl) tapi dr. Anis said to the young patient that i'm also a doctor :) *that was the 1st experience of psg catheter*

kat ruangan (ward H and D) i handle for 3patients..
cases; 1.stone at urethra, 2.staghhorn stone at left kidney and 3. undescensus testis with hernia
patients pun baik ramah tamah with me.. so senang i nak check patients coz xbyk songeh.. tq ye coz senangkan kerja i nak report kt my PPDS (residents)

anyway, pernah dgr case silikonoma penis? lelaki yg nak besarkan penis so dieorang suntik with ape2 liquid to make it more bigger.. either for sexual satisfaction or terikut2 ngn kawan.. 5days i'm in Urology dh ader 3cases.. so Prof Soenaryo asked PPDS to kumpul kan this cases as research..

ader 1 morning report yg plg bwt kami sume pecah ketawa termasuk Prof jgk.. coz ade 1 case ni pen tersangkut dlm vesica urethra *ok xmau ulasan lanjut lgk*

pokoknye best Urology.. PPDS sgt baik n tenter kami..
even blk lewat malam pun, kami gelak2 gembira je kat ward for nak hilangkan stress..

dulu kecik2 pernah cite2 nak jdk surgeon *tapi sekarang..? hahaha...*

Thursday, May 13, 2010

A CaLL

The best part when i saw "private number" appeared in my Hp screen while it was ringing..
and the happiest part when i heard my father's voice over the phone.."Assalamualaikum adik Intan.."

everything seems perfect to me..
when i told my dad & mom about my doctors, patients, studies, exams and others..

my dad was listening carefully just like he's a doctor and i'm the patient..
telling everything about my pain deep inside my heart..

it just like when a girl over excited when her boyfriend was calling her..
and everything seems like a rainbow in cloudy skies...
that's what i'm feeling because i don't have a boyfriend to share the real things...

a father can be the best listener, the best solution over mountain of problems...
the best shoulder to cry over like a baby, the strongest and protective bodyguard...

when we wanna hang over our conversation,
the sweetest words came over from his mouth was...
" love you "

mom & dad,
i love both of u over and over again..
everyday my loves ++ and become higher ..
it just like i'm addicted to my own heroine ..
" Ya Allah, please forgive my parents for every wrong doings they had done, healthy and happy life, and may Along, adik Chik and me always give the best results in everything to make our parents proud of us..kuatkan lah iman kami semua semoga kami sentiasa berjalan lurus.. jauhkan lah kami dari hasutan dan godaan syaitan" amin !

Sunday, May 2, 2010

On-Call


Tugas Jaga.. or Oncall ..tu best if ~~~~

1. DM (dokter muda) yg jaga ngn kite tu pun best n sporting
2. Dokter Jaga yg jaga ngn kiter tu sempoi, tenter n mengajar DM, buku tulis for Dr Jaga ..die snd yg tulis (bukan suh DM yg tulis..sbb DM snd ader buku jaga for nk tulis SOAP patients snd)
3. Dokter Jaga tu sporting n blanje DM ..okla atleast air kotak ke... kan dh happy DM yg kerja ngn Dr tu..btol x?
4. Ade org visit time kiter Jaga..wahh itu happy ! or jumpe ngn DM2 stase lain yg on-call same ngn kiter..mmg happy melompat2 ..xkesah dah tu IRD ke aper..hahaha
5. Ade org hantar food kat kiter...wahhhh..xpyh dh mkn" Selamat Menikmati"


so kesimpulannyeh.. xde laa terasa tension/stress/nak maki2 mengamok if on-call from 2pm (after class) till d next morning at 7am ...dahla 730am dah kne msk class blk mcm biasa..

17hrs ..sape xpenat?

tapi for me, sayer bertahan je..harungi apa kt depan.. lex2..cool... jgn mengamok2 xbaik.. ramai patients..treat je baik2... yeahhhh baru idop sentiasa awet muda n disukai ramai :) :) muaxxxx

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

4n6


Tak sangke, cepat btol masa berlalu. Dah 1bulan dh so bye2 to Forensic, hello to Ophtalmology (blaja psl mata)

Bestla Forensic, santai duk main card, chess, melepak kt canteen forensic yg murah tapi agak "bersih". Tapi plg best is doctors2 Forensic sume cool2 n best2..including Staff specialist. Head Department, Dr. Agus mmg sporting habis, dhla kelakar and byk je cite. PPDS dr.Nyoman, dr. Bambang, dr. Eddy, dr. Nilie (btol nk eje?) n lain2 sume sporting n cool. Thanks to Dr. Nurjahyo as our dosen pebimbing for refrat. Exam autopsy ok je ngn dr.Eddy :) and exam medikolegal ngn Prof Sudjari .. fuh fuh.. *nafas lege even ade je xleh jawab.. tp Prof baikla*

Dulu, time saya 2nd year, pernah je ikut group 3rd yr medical students Uitm. *coz Add is my oldfrenz in TKC*. So, joined dieorang kt Forensic HKL. Mmg different laa fr Msia-Indon from my point of view. Kt Msia, mmg diakui theory dieroang mmg mantap la lebih2 lgk they r using full english terms. But ader kekurangan jgk compared to Indonesia. Coz time kt Forensic, kebetulan tgk Autopsy/Post-mortem lelaki Myanmar kene luka tembak (police tembak laa ). Mmg A-Z specialist saje yg bwt with his assistant. Students just tgk kt atas (mcm ader stage for tgk procedure of autopsy. Just time tu Dr baik sgt, dier kater xdpt ilmu if just stkt tengok dari atas stage, so better turun bawah n tgk snd or pegang. Kami pn turunla. Mmg facilities kt Msia mmg canggih n complete la. Even pakaian for Post-mortem pun mmg pakaian khusus. Dr explained to us cara2, how he died, kesan luka tembak tu kene kt mana, emboli artery, and bla2. He also showed to us X-ray and visum from police to do Post-mortem. Dr suruhla kami touched the brain. And i was the one who berani to touch it in the 1st place. *Mcm aneh kenapa bdk2 lain xsentuh and takut2 sampai Dr suruh*. Then baru teringat yg kt Msia dieroang mmg xde belah mayat snd during Anatomy dl (i'm not sure if USM or other uni how) coz they used organ2 yg dh siap dibelah and dah dlm balang formalin utk belajar Anatomy. Compared to us, during 1st year dl, Anatomy practicum dlm 1 group (bape tah.. 12 students ke? xingatla) dapat 1 cadaver yg masih utuh *complete body*. So mmg kami sendiri yg dissect cadaver to from superficial sampaila ke nerves, artery,vein, organs, muscles,tendon, bones, brains and others :) tapi ader Doctors as guidance before nak bwt sume nih la *sebab students leh je tersilap potong kan..or xdapat carik esp mcm vasa and nerves*


Compared to Forensic here, procedure autopsy/post-mortem sume mmg students yg bwt. Starting from PL-pemeriksaan luar jenazah till PD-pemeriksaan dalam jenazah (or autopsy). Of course mmg ader PPDS yg jaga, tapi mmg kami students yg bwt sume. Usually dlm 2groups around 10-12students. Sebab minimum students atleast dah pernah bwt 2x autopsy. So, starting from belah badan bentuk "Y" or "I", gergaji scr manual nak bukak tengkorak for nak check brains (kat Msia canggih coz they r using electric saw), potong and keluarkan organ, check kelainan, timbang berat organ, ambek photo *credit to my sony cybershot as camera autopsy*, catat dlm Visum, all everything Dokter Muda yg bwt. PPDS check2 mane2 yg salah, or tgk kelainan pd organ or betulkan ayat2 kami yg salah dlm laporan Jenazah. Maybe dari segi practical, i'm giving stars to Indonesia compared to Msia. Tapi yg kelakarnyeh, pakaian autopsy kami sume hand-made ! ahahha. *mcm pokok bergerak dlm baja* rain coat, plastik beg for cover up our shoes. :) :) ok nih dari segi budjet mmg Hospital xsediakan for students, so kami snd yg kene beli on our own. Selamat ader duit JPA ..tq government !

Sekarang dh habis dh Forensic. Tapi time group saya jaga, byk dapat cases yg menarik utk belajar.
#Jenazah meninggal coz accident ader laa kot dlm 2-3x,
# case lelaki Mesir meninggal coz Bird Flu,
#rekontruksi tulang2 yg dijumpai kt hutan tahun 2009 *lelaki, diduga kena luka bacok and luka tajam and kne bakar. Tengkorak pecah, patah tulang2, retak, ade kesan luka bacok and luka tajam kt tulang2. Drg. Wieke pun dtg identified gigi coz hanya tinggal tulang je kan..and ukur sume tulang2, nak tau usia si korban*
#case mati lemas dlm sungai.. bengkak sume..
#case pembunuhan. Mati luka tajam and luka tumpul kt kepala, leher, dada, perut, and extrimetas.Usus terburai time baru sampai kt kami. Kesimpulan, mati perdarahan dan kerosakn organ2 vital dan ditambah bengkak otak (oedem otak) coz jantung,paru, hati, perut, usus sume ader luka tajam. mmg ngeri la.. *pembunuh tu dh dapat tangkap dah*
#ade case abortion criminalis so baby tu dh mati si ibu yg kejam tgl dlm kotak dgn plastik hitam. kecikkkkk sgt fetus tu..coz baru 5bln. comel je. bwtla test paru apung. tapi -ve (meaning mmg xpernah bernafas lgk)
#pernah ikut g CSI - Crime Scene Investigation or snih pgl TKP. ade nenek mati dlm kedai makan dier. so Dr dipanggil for pastikan mangsa sudah mati or masih hidup, cari penyebab kematian, cara kematian, and kumpulkan bahan2 bukti. After habis TKP, PPDS trus g lunch, maybe PPDS dh biasa and lali dgn forensic ni so masih lgk bernafsu nak makan :P

Ok, paling jahat sekali, Apan pernah terkejutkan saye dlm ruang Autopsy sampai saye menjerit mcm org gila. Till bapak yg jaga forensic tu kaget n lari nak selamatkan saye. *Thila ingatkan sye kne rasuk* .. bukan kene rasuk.. tapi Apan nih mmg nakal la !! selamat xpengsan !

Pernah jgk time 2nd autopsy, jenazah dh mulai membusuk (manusia start membusuk >18-24 jam and plg cepat membusuk are brain, cecum -usus, uterus post partus) time tu sayer termuntah ngn horror nyeh coz bwt kat abdomen esp usus. Tapi steady je, after lap2 mulut and rasa xpening dah, sambung balik bwt kerja. ahakz.. kne la kuatkan semangat..

Ape2 pun, kita sedekahkan Al-fatihah kepada jenazah2 kt Forensic yg dah meninggal dunia (mostly Islam coz Indonesia penduduk ramai Islam). Al-fatihah jgk kepada kaum keluarga kita yg dh meniggal dunia. Moga roh2 mereka diampukan dosa dan ditempatkan bersama2 org yg beriman.

Friday, April 16, 2010

SRoLL n RoBes ~






Alhamdulillah, on 7th-12th my parents came to visit me for convocation occasion.
Wisuda on 10th April. Selamat atas Sarjana Kedokteran.
The day when i make my parents, family, lecturers and friends proud of me :)
Tq Allah for giving us chance to breath in this world being successful person
Tq parents for ur support, loves and sharing
Tq Doctors for ur ilmu and kebaikan

InsyaAllah..moga2 Dokter Muda dapat dilalui dengan tabah, sempurna, tidak main2, lulus semua ujian dan tidak melakukan kesalahan2 displin. Moga kami lulus on time.. insyaAllah Sept 2011 :) kemudian berbakti ke negara asal kami kembali.. aminnnnnnnnnnnnnn ~

Sunday, April 4, 2010

HappY biRtHdaY to Me :)










I love those pictures ... Anyway thanks to Nad, Acap, Arina, Auliya, Pika & Amar.. sweet sgt korang.. sedap brfdy cake tu ! xtau pn they nk bwt suprise..hahah..tp comel la acap dtg bwk cake! haha... after makan2 we g support Infuse Band (Yasmin, Adam, Aki, Faried n bdk Indo lain xknal) ..performed kat Speedy belakang TP. yeahhh Min rockkkk !!!

Thanks to mama when she faced between death and life just to labor me on 29th March 1986. Thanks mama & abah for ur commitment, loves, caring, n responsible parents to raise 3 of us with tears & joyful. Along celebrate birthday same date & month with me too on 29th March 84 while Chik on 14th March 87. When we were small, every year we celebrated our birthday together having some party at home (tq mama dh melayan kerenah kami..tq maksu, makteh n sume2 auntie2 & uncle2 kesayangan kami)

Tq mama.. tq abah...

Hoping that we can reward u with golds, jewelery, luxurious cars and big house. But those things are not as high as ur loves towards ur children.

May Allah bless our family. Only Allah knows ur kindness and both of u had done such a good model as parents to color our life. Just like people said that children are white, pure and plain , their parents who the one decided to create their life in future besides attitude, moral, religious and others.

We know that mama n abah proud of us. Seeing us growing as adult, mature, being a Muslim n Muslimah towards Islam, never put the important ones behind and with bright future (InsyaAllah). Along as accountant, me as future doctor & Adeq Chik as future lawyer. We still need ur prayers and bless to become successful persons in future and of course we need both of u where ever and when ever we are.

Thanks En. Zainudin Hj Othaman and Pn Norihan Jaafar. We always pray for ur health,murah rezeki, panjang umur, may Allah forgive ur sins, may both of u always hear the good news from ur children, tears on ur cheeks because of our high achievement but not on our failure.

We love both of u !!

-Along, Intan & Adik Chik :)

Monday, March 29, 2010

Altantuya Shaaribuu


Ayah Altantuya diperintah kemuka kos jaminan RM60,000

30/03/2010 6:43pm

SHAH ALAM 30 Mac - Mahkamah Tinggi Shah Alam di sini hari ini memerintahkan bapa Altantuya, Shaariibuu Setev agar mengemukakan kos jaminan sebanyak RM60,000 kepada penganalisis politik, Abdul Razak Baginda dan Kerajaan Malaysia.

Pesuruhjaya Kehakiman Datuk Zaleha Yusof memerintahkan jumlah tersebut dikemukakan dalam tempoh tiga bulan.

Permohonan kos jaminan itu dibuat oleh Abdul Razak dan kerajaan Malaysia selepas kedua-duanya disaman oleh Shaariibuu yang menuntut ganti rugi sebanyak RM100 juta berikutan kematian Altantuya empat tahun lalu. - Utusan






The Altantuya Shaaribuu Case: How and why she was killed

SHAARIBUU SETEV is a bitter and disappointed man. Yet behind the sad face of this Mongolian lies a fierce determination.

"My daughter has been murdered by Malaysians on Malaysian territory. And they did not even offer a word of apology," states this professor of psychology at the National University of Mongolia.

The murder of his daughter, Altantuya Shaaribuu, took place in October 2006. Everything in this case - which started in 2002 when the French-Spanish company Armaris concluded the sale of three submarines to the Malaysian government for �1 billion - is out of the ordinary. The murder of the 28-year-old Mongolian was the result of a "commission" of �114 million by Armaris to its Malaysian counterpart. This commission, acknowledged by the Malaysian government, triggered a chain of events that led to the assassination of Altantuya and the disappearance of several key witnesses in the case.

A November 19, 2006 report from the Malaysian police, which has been kept secret until now, reveals precise descriptions how this young woman, a member of Asian high society, was killed. In this document, one of the killers, a policeman of the Malaysian Special Branch named Sirul Omar, replied to questions by an officer at a police station close to the murder scene.

"When the Chinese woman saw that I had a gun, she begged me to spare her, saying she was pregnant. Azilah [Sirul's commanding officer] grabbed her and threw her on the ground. I immediately shot the left side of her face. Then Azilah took off her clothes and put them in a black plastic bag. Azilah noticed that her hand was still moving. He ordered me to shoot again, which I did," said Sirul.

This is the first confirmation of Altantuya's killers' identity.

"Then we carried her body into the woods. Azilah wrapped explosives around her legs, abdomen and head, and we blew her up."

The revelation of this report in the French newspaper Liberation is the latest chapter in this dramatic saga featuring French arms dealers, Mongolian shamans and Malaysian politicians.

This case is explosive not only for the Malaysian government, with the deputy prime minister and finance minister Najib Razak (who is scheduled to become prime minister at the end of March) suspected of having links to the case. It could also embarrass DCNS, the French company specialising in military shipbuilding. Armaris, which sold Scorp�ne and Agosta submarines to Malaysia in June 2002 was bought by DCNS in 2007.

Altantuya grew up in St Petersburg, then studied at the Institute of Economic Management in Beijing. Besides speaking English, she was fluent in Russian, Chinese and Korean. The fateful cycle for her began when she met Abdul Razak Baginda in Hong Kong in 2004. Baginda is a security expert and was the director of the Malaysian Strategic Research Centre, a pro-government think-tank. The two became romantically involved. Altantuya, nicknamed Tuya by her friends, proved to be a useful assistant, helping Baginda translate from Russian to English.

In March 2005 Altantuya and Baginda went to Europe, touring France, Germany, Italy and Portugal, staying in plush hotels and dining in the finest restaurants. This trip, however, was not only for pleasure: the contract for the sale of the submarines had been signed in 2002, but important details had yet to be settled.

"We knew that Baginda was used by Deputy Prime Minister Najib Razak as an intermediary for weapons deals, especially the high-level ones," says a regional security-affairs expert.

At the end of March 2005 the couple was in Paris, where they met with Najib Razak. A picture shows the three in a Parisian club.

"Tuya showed me the picture. She said that one of the men was her boyfriend, Abdul Razak Baginda, and the other the big boss, Najib Razak," said Altantuya's best friend Amy. "I asked her if they were brothers because of the names, but she said no, that Najib Razak was the prime minister."

Najib Razak has sworn on the Koran that he never met Altantuya. According to a private detective, now in hiding in India, Tuya was also the occasional mistress of the deputy prime minister, who was introduced to her by Baginda at the end of 2004.

In October 2006, Altantuya was informed that the commission paid by Armaris had arrived in the Kuala Lumpur bank account of Perimekar, a company owned by Baginda.

Altantuya went to Kuala Lumpur to claim her share of the commission from Baginda; she said she was entitled to US$500,000 (Bt18 million). She and Baginda had already broken up prior to this.

Meanwhile, a jealous Rosmah Mansor, the feared businesswoman and wife of Najib Razak, objected to any payment to Altantuya.

For several days, Altantuya harassed her ex-lover. On October 18, Baginda could no longer tolerate the daily scenes made by Altantuya in front of his house. He contacted the director of the Special Branch, Musa Safrie, who happened also to be Najib Razak's aide de camp. On October 19, 2006, just before 9pm, two Special Branch officers, Azilah Hadridan and Sirul Omar, were sent to Baginda's house, where Altantuya was gesticulating and shouting. They were ordered to "neutralise the Chinese woman". They kidnapped her, shot her several times, then destroyed her body with C4 explosives, which could only be obtained from the Defence Ministry. Altantuya's entry into Malaysia was erased from immigration records.

Somehow, the local police were tipped off that something odd had happened in front of Baginda's house, and events unfolded that even Deputy Prime Minister Najib Razak could not impede. He tried to cover up the case. Before the arrest of Baginda, [the deputy prime minister] sent him an SMS: "I will see the inspector-general of police at 11am today... The problem will be solved. Be cool". A few hours later, Baginda was arrested along with Azilah and Sirul.

After a trial considered dubious by many observers, Baginda was acquitted of having ordered the murder and was released in November 2008. Accused of having perpetrated the murder, Azilah and Sirul appeared in court last month. If convicted, their sentences will be death. The verdict is scheduled for April 9.

In Ulan Bator, 12-year-old Mungunshagai, the eldest son of Altantuya, is still traumatised by the death of his mother. Five-year-old Altanshagai, her youngest son, is mentally handicapped and doers not understand that he will never see his mother again.

"He asks for her all the time and stays the whole day in his chair. Every evening I bring him sweets and tell him that his mother gave them to me for him," says Shaaribuu Setev, the grandfather of the two boys.

As for Baginda, he has settled in the UK with his family. He has never uttered a word of regret on the fate of the woman who shared his life for two years.

Arnaud Dubus (in Kuala Lumpur, Ulan Bator and Paris)

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Ok saya xnak comment pasal Kes Altantuya ke, kerajaan Malaysia ke, Shaariibuu ke, Razak Baginda ke.. sebab nanti if salah sane snih (either saya bagi facts or create story.. tak pasai2 studies saya kt Indonesia kne hang..JPA kne tarik.. tup tap tup tap masuk jail or ISA) *even my Dad pengarah penjara Tapah pn maybe xdpt nak bantu kang*

Saya just nak cerita macam mane if some1 yang dah mati dibunuh/terbunuh/bunuh diri/plane crash/accident/ok laa xkisahlaa ape2 motif pembunuhan pun.. then tiba dibakar/terbakar sampai hancur hangus sampai kiter xnampak dah jenazah/ si korban. So mcm mane kiter nak identify jenazah? Even kiter xnmpk pakaian si korban, ape tah lagi muka dan tubuh badan. Kulit hangus mcm arang (belum lagi termasuk if cuma tinggal serpihan badan sahaja)

Nak ambik darah? tak dapat kesan dah mane vena, artery... darah pun dh xde kt tubuh si korban

Nak ambik cap jari?? sbb org kater DNA cap jari manusia sume lain2..tapi kulit dh rentung.

Nak ambek sampel urine? jantung? ginjal? paru? liver? sume dah jadik *cookies*

Salah satu cara kita nk identify mayat yg rentung akibat kebakaran is dgn check gigi !! sebab walaupun tulang2 yg lain dah hancur/patah/reput tapi, gigi kita masih utuh sebab ade unsur2 element yg kuat *for further info pergila tnyer Dentist nyerk* (ini termasukla if kita masih memakai gigi palsu, crown, bridge ke ape2 laaa psl dental nih) semua ni ade dlm Dental Record. So, once seseorang dh mati dibunuh, plg senang pembunuh nak hilangkan bukti2 is dgn membakar mayat si korban *mmg sangat2 kejam...ko tunggu laaa api neraka nnt ngapppp ko..xde sape nak bele ko*

Moral of d value : pergila check gigi sll.. updating ur kesihatan gigi.. sebab Dental Record ni penting. Ok pasal case Altantuya ni.. smpai skrng mcm masih xbetul2 solve.. tak pela.. hanya Allah saja yg tau kebenaran siapa pembunuh dan yg bersubahat. Hanya akhirat saja yg benar2 Mahkamah yg plg adil. Kita dah tak perlukan pangkat, harta ape2, nanti cuma kebaikan di dunia dan berjalan lurus dgn ajaran2 Islam sahaja dpt menilai kita. Emas berlian, kereta Ferrari, pangkat tinggi, dah melancong 1 dunia smpai ke Bulan, Marikh, Pluto mcmne pun bkn leh bwk masuk kubur. Manusia tak takut dengan azab Allah sekarang di dunia tapi nanti di akhirat tiada siapa leh bantu kita even our parents or bf or nenek or sape2. Hanya ilmu agama bekalan di akhirat. Nauzubillah. Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, Engkau menghidupkan aku dengan sifat fizikal yg sempurna, maka Engkau matikan lah aku dengan cukup sifat yang sempurna seperti mana aku dilahirkan drpd rahim ibu ku. Matikan lah aku dlm keimanan. Begitu juga dengan kedua ibu-bapa ku dan saudara2 Islam yg seagama dgn ku. Amin